Pretty Ugly

Beauty..some says its in the eyes of the beholder..some says its from within..some says its forever,some says its temporary..which one would you stand by?you can choose one or two of those famous quotes and key it in your mind and say it every break of dawn hoping that it would get you through the day feeling beautiful and confindent , but to me, beauty is expensive.

Standing in front a makeup store for me is like eating haagen dazs's ice cream..so irritatingly beautiful,almost heaven to your senses yet thinking about the calories behind those intoxicating flavour makes you visualise yourself as an ugly fat ogre and how much cash ure spending for a pint of ice cream..God how i crave to buy those colourful eyeshadows although i can buy half price with double the size in a drugstore.its really hard to make choices if ure in my shoes. If i enter a mac store i would think over and over again wether should i buy the stuffs i wanted so much for months or not..i end up walking out heading to few drugstores to make comparisons.after doing some calculating, i would go back to the mac store putting on a thick face( cause the salesperson is looking so irritated at me) and buy the same stuff that i could just have bought at the first time..after doing all that,ill be relieved knowing that i spent good money and had a good bargain..

Remembering my mom,the most beautiful person to me inside and out...my mother now would not leave the house without her unretouched gray hair and make up. At 48 i think my mom is a beautiful woman for her age, loving every minute of being a woman and always put a smile on her face eventhough inside she is battling with her own dilemma. So much the opposite in my childhood days where money is an issue,my mom would sacrifice on buying new clothes,makeup, jewelleries which is to me a women must haves just to strive to put food on the table.in her troubled times my mom always managed to pick up herself, dab some powder and put on her lipstick and that is i guess a little heaven for her..every now and then i love giving cosmetics,jewellery,clothes and shoes to my mom cause i do believe that my mom somehow finds strength in beauty.but truly from the bottom of my heart my mom’s true beauty is her strength, her determination, her love for us and her neverending prayers for our happiness which are so rare and to me is priceless.

Theres also those people i know who are unbelievably beautiful who doesnt give a damn of how much they pay for it...beauty treatments, injections, surgeries,pills serums and creams only they know how expensive that is..and these product are specially designed to be used continouosly or you will lose it. And i dont know why some of these people love to compete each other on who is better looking or who has the best modification..with those come jealousy, hatred and the dirt in their heart, you cant sweep away with your 200 dollar brush, the dark spots even darker than CARBON, and u couldnt even light them with ALL THAT GLITTERS and AMBERLIGHTS in the world.